Seasons of Unfolding
Part of my blog from Avasjourney.life “From a Momma’s Perspective-Aubrey’s Blog.”
What have I learned?
I have always chosen to move through LOVE. I practice forgiveness. Not for anyone else but myself. I have more pride and value within myself than those people could EVER offer me. I can lay my head on my pillow at night with clarity, knowing I did right by my morals and values and the lives watching. Deflection of others negative energy, just goes right back to them, not me! I’ve learned protection of myself and my light is sacred. Their loss.
I realized that sometimes it takes big life shifts to clear out the negative. To shake off those layers of judgement and opinions that I NEVER NEEDED to begin with. I also realized misery loves company. We get wrapped up sometimes. Trusting people who we think bring value and goodness into our lives, our families and work environment. Taking on everyone as a “friend.” It sounded good at the time- but guess what? It's better to have 4 quarters than 100 pennies.
Now, here I am standing a little taller, a little wiser and a hell of a lot stronger. I see what you did there God. I trust your timing and I am humbled.
It makes me realize that there are layers within myself that still need to dissolve and be worked through. Layers that need to be broken in to make room for clarity. For more light and positive energy.
You know why I write this blog?
Because every single time I have written a blog or an insightful social media post, a person has reached out to me. Letting me know how I helped them today. I influenced their life somehow in a small way that shifted them to stand a little taller, wiser and stronger. I write real and raw. I write within MY truth. Do you know that there are people reading this now, that I know have read my blogs and posts in the past. But do not EVER acknowledge or comment?
Guess what? Some people will never like you because you irritate their demons.
Life isn’t always butterflies and sunshine. There are days of darkness, and people that will try to bring you down, but know that light will always shine through. It can be scary to push ahead and not fall within the opinions of others. To expect a pat on the back and never get it. Trust me when I say it’s not you, it’s them. But girl, stop with those expectations of others. That’s a path for let downs.
Once you have accepted everything that has ever happened to you. The circumstances, things you have ever encountered good and bad. That’s the moment you gain the power to change anything in your life.
Unfolding, pulling back layers, taking accountability can be a danger zone for some. I beg you to surrender that fear and take a slow walk through yourself. There is so much more beneath the layers of our skin. One by one move to peel them away. Tearing through ugly messy layers. Clearing out negative vibrations, people, unwelcomed circumstances- It’s like peeling back a rooted onion. You think you’re at the point you can start chopping it up and there stands another thin slimy, filmy layer between you and the inside of the onion. Clearing away those protective layers one by one. Then, you finally cut into that onion and what happens? You shed a tear. The deeper you cut, the more tears you shed. These tears are your bodies way of releasing emotions. Don’t let that scare you. Shedding tears of circumstance, experiences and fears is releasing them from the prison they have been placed within your space. Bring these to the surface and clear space within yourself! Opening up more space for clarity, warmth and love.
This is a lifelong journey not a one and done.
I believe we have so much to offer one another. Sharing our experiences is how we help others and we personally grow. We have been programed from a young age of what to believe, whats right from wrong, how to interact or how not to interact. What to say and when to be silent. But have you found your voice? The voice that sits inside way down deep in the pits of your body. Not your parents voice, your spouses, your boses voice or the voice on the podcast... YOUR VOICE.
Give yourself grace and humility. I promise you will hit roadblocks and barricades. You will also leave handprints and soft smiles along the way. Unfolding and awakening, while building a legacy at the same time. Dealing with betrayal, heartache and fear. This has all been part of my year in review. Through it all I choose LOVE. Living my life heart forward and learning from my encounters and experiences. All of them. Doing these little acts will pull me away from that fake energy, those selfish people that come into my path. I am more aware and will steer my wheel around them now.
From the depths of my soul I am seeking self growth daily. Experimenting, I dive into books, podcasts, connecting within friendships, making new ones. Magnetically connecting to the people who feel like the sunshine. Listening to my body when it tells me to rest. Sitting by the ocean, watching the waves, feeling the movement of the earth beneath my feet. And most of all I yearn for my spiritual connection to strengthen within my relationship with God, my creator. All these things propel us forward and into a greater space. Making daily life so much more eye opening.
What makes my heart happy?
Me. Self-Love. My husband. My children. My Best Friends. Lighting people up. Seeing other people full of joy and renewal. That makes me happy. I love seeing other people live their best life and am attratced to that positive force. I yearn for deep spiritual connection in this life. I use my essential oils daily to awaken my soul, to keep me present to these precious days on earth. My family and I hold our own clock. We are in charge of our time.
What makes your heart happy?
Embrace your seasons of unfolding. Because you’ll never know the value of a moment, until its a memory.
XO Aubrey
